I’ve been feeling overwhelmed lately for no good reason. I find my evenings have been less busy since Christmas. The children are still busy with their activities, but between carpooling and Chloe driving herself – and often the other kids – around, it’s very manageable. There are busier times coming – gymnastics competitions, birthdays, a wedding, work-related photo shoots and events, and preparing to go on a spring break holiday, but there are lots of free days too. So I’m not sure why I feel so anxious. I can hardly focus on the few things I have to do now because I’m stressed about things coming up in the future. It doesn’t make sense, especially because I like being busy (within reason). I guess I’ll just blame it on winter or a vitamin deficiency or hormonal imbalance. I do a workout video most days but my lack of outdoor exercise may also be to blame.
Two things I’ve been consumed with lately:
- I just finished reading the book Darla gave me for my birthday called A House in the Sky. It’s about a woman from Alberta who was kidnapped and held for ransom in Somalia for 15 months. It’s an incredible, well-written story that totally captivated me. I couldn’t put it down all weekend and I still can’t stop thinking about it. You should read it and then we can all discuss it. Except now I’ve played it up too much and you’ll be disappointed. No, you won’t.
- Carbs. I am hungry and think about food all day long. Between my unexplained anxiety and my cravings, you’d think I was pregnant. You would be wrong. Maybe I have a tape worm. I’d google my symptoms, but that’s never a good idea. I try to eat carrots and fruit and nuts, but what I really want are warm fudgy brownies and flaky croissants and cinnamon buns dripping with cream cheese icing. I make cookies or brownies almost every day. I eat huge handfuls of chocolate chips. I discovered our IKEA now carries the rolls of chocolates that we used to buy when we lived in Toronto. I hide them from the children and sneak them when no one’s looking.